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August 6th, 2005
02:16 pm - Zax-O-Phone
I have let this journal go to waste, I know - I just use it for back up ;-)
Go to www.myspace.com/zaxophone for sample of v.1 rough and beyond logic
www.myspace.com/zaxophonev2 for samples of v.2 A God < 2 Rot
and go to www.myspace.com/zaxophonev3 for samples of v.3 The WALL HAS (F)EARS (still under construction)
thank you !
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April 4th, 2005
04:43 pm - I have got a Mid Splat in my Hat
I have become an official reviewer for the Mid Splatter Night website (www.midsplatter.be)!
I got my hoof in de door with my review on the legendary Last House On The Left by Wes Craven. However.
I will very soon bring you the crap de la crap, no- budget zombie flick Shatter Dead, followed by the utterly amusing Mark Of The Devil !
More gore is to come!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) amused
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January 22nd, 2005
08:57 pm - “In need of beaten women” ~Project “FEarMALE”
Stuff if getting pretty pressuring – end work and allot of other classes creeping up on me, plus about 6 projects of significant impact which demand allot of time, skill, patience and energy.
One of my nearest deadlines is a project I’m doing for Amnesty International.
I dropped my original idea yesterday, a last minute move, which may come to bite me in the ass, sooner then alter. But hey, I wouldn’t have delivered any good product when my cold heart wasn’t into it so…
It will (hopefully) features in a echibit for Amnesty International. This year their theme is Violence Against Women.
Instead of making a ‘Cunt Cutters’ Mixed media piece I decided to do a little digital dabbling which I call ‘ project FEarMALE’
I’ll confront the viewer with celebrities, which I will ‘beat up’ with my digital fist :-)
I’ll also incorporate some texts of AI…
So if anyone can help me out by telling we were to get some pictures of women crying, abused, mutilated or any medical pictures of female circumcision it would be very welcome!!!!
Please don’t think your funny if you post SM links or anything line that… and oh yeah for the record- NO I’m not into beating girl, if I was would not be supporting this campaign!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/angry.gif) cranky
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January 19th, 2005
07:59 pm - some new stuff
Hails to all few twisted souls whom have stumbled upon this log by accident or accident of anti-mystical causes.
I’m happy to announce a new update of my artwork will be featuring on www.satanicroom.com soon!
Paintings;
The Man who Dreamt Death
Rudolf the Dead-Nose Rain-Dear (or Behemoth 052)
Spring Masquerade
(Spring masquerade II) _Kitty Girl
Sketches ;
The A-SX_ualety ov the Aleph-ophile
Ronvix
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January 3rd, 2005
08:58 pm
“It (painting) can be as violent as fucking, like an orgasm or an ejaculation. The result is often disappointing, but the process is highly exciting.”
- Franicis Bacon
There are two new pictures concerning the Construction of the Satanic Decompression Chamber on www.satanicroom.com just look at my photography works...
Current Mood: awake
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December 3rd, 2004
09:01 pm - Check out the (D-)constrcution Ritual
I have begun the construction of the Satanic Ritual Chamber – my year project that will hopefully lead to my graduation.
For the occasion I started another journal, which if less personal and focuses on that project only.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/_lordleviathan_/
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September 5th, 2004
12:23 pm - I'm fucking Hitler :-)
Guess what, I took the test and I came out a Hitler lol
the irony. Aw well, beats being Tony Blear
Congratulations! You are the most evil man of all time! Not only did you exterminate millions of Jews and involved the world in the biggest war the world has ever seen, you also convinced the Germans that the perfect human is a tall blue eyed blond when you're a short, dark Austrian yourself! Well done you spiteful little shit!
What tin-pot dictator are you? Take the "What Dictator am I?" test at PoisonedMinds.com
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August 30th, 2004
12:22 pm - Mid_Splatter_Night -review
On the evening of August 28th , nearly a full hour before the first movie was to be unleashed, a hand full of people started to leak thorough the doors of the location where the MidSplatterNight scheme was to take place.
I soon found myself in relatively small room which could hold up to 200 persons – it served it’s purpose well.
In this semi-industrial room horror-soundtrack themes echoed in a brainwashing pattern as the guests got their tastes of zombie-splatter cakes and pancakes.
People started to gather and what started off as a hand full of hardcore movie nuts had now become a significant group of very diverse people.
Then, at last, the crimson lighting dimmed and the first movie was projected.
Zombi 2 ;Gli Ultimi Zombi (1979)
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To my regret this is my first Fulci fim. I recently started a hunt for ‘The Beyond’ and ‘Zombi’ and the viewing of Zombi 2 only made me more determined.
As expected I got my tasted his famous eyeball fetish, on a big screen at that. –What a poking fun that was !
Since I haven’t seen the original Zombi I can’t compare, but I expect it to be better as most originals tend to be.
Zombi 2 has an intro that packs quite a punch. After that however it gets a bit slow but the finally is well worth the waiting. The last half hour gets pretty climatic an the ending is somewhat amusing.
The zombies look great. Unlike the ‘Dawn of the Dead ‘ zombies they don’t have that strange blue shade (which in all honesty does kind of make them look like flesh-eating Smurfs at times) it’s all good old fashion rottenness.
There are some great renewing shots like the 180°-from-pretty-face-to-festering-undead camera angle. Or the aquatic zombie sequence which seems funny at first but then you can’t deny it’s beauty and artistic value.
Even more, ‘Jaws’ is left in the fishbowl after the 4 min original on which a certain filmmaker surely drew for his blockbuster…
As for acting… wrong film ! lol
The script sometimes has a nihilistic ‘Sound of Music’ feel to it ; ‘no,no,no,no don’t do that’ or ‘oh,oh,why,why,why did you do that ?!’
There are also various charters who clearly don’t speak English and have thus been voiced over. A techinque whic was not very refined – as you hear character say ‘let me have my peace’ and he says peace with his lips set for a clear long ‘O’
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Then, after some small technical problems (computers always fuck up when you need them) Braindead was showed for our (dis)pleasure.
Braindead (1990)
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Peter Jackson is famous for his (over)celebrated ‘Lord of the Rings’ movie adaptations and (luckely) less famous, ‘Meet the Feebles’ (which deserves a place in the BAD BAD movies corner). However, I find this Braindead much more appealing than his aforementioned films.
Braindead is an immensely funny splatter movie. In fact one might have to invent a new term such as ‘mondo-splatter’ or Giga-splatter for this one as there are countless gallons of fake blood in this flick.
Where ‘Return of the Living Dead ‘ fails, Braindead excels in it’s grotesque, politically incorrect spatter parodying.
This isn’t just another comedy with a few drops of blood and a sadistic insinuation of fact. – It starts of with some immensely sadistic slapstick humour (think Texas Chainsaw Massacre meets Mr. Bean) and takes on a nasty Oedipus syndrome to an exceptionally bloody and over the top finally which oozes of slime, murderous guts (seriously), mutants, zombies and a mother that looks like Return of the Jedi’s Rankor monster.
There are also some really funny one-liners in the film. But over all Braindead is a like a roller coaster ride in Zombie Mekka .
But be warned, there isn’t a single scene in this film which does not defy all logic. And as I said it tend to get a bit over the top at the ending. Never the less great fun !
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Some of the audience seemed strangely less interested in food after the viewing of Braindead.
Little did they know that they had just spent a hour and an half in kindergarten compared to the sickness that was still to come…
Ilsa; the She Wolf of the SS (1974)
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Where the hell do I start with this one …
I guess there is nothing better (read worse) then to start off with the demented centrepiece of this (s)exploitation film. Ilisa is a bloodthirsty, sadistic Nazi doctor with an X-cup (I believe).
She enjoys to castrate any of the male prisoners who can not satisfy her sexual needs. But of course she is also very professional (ahum) and does medical research for the Third Reich. The FRAWLINE doctor has a theory that’ women can stand more pain, than any man ever could’. Thus you get up close to her and her two half naked, blonde nazi ‘nurses’ (read dominatrix ) Some of the daytime activities are burning, whipping, sterilisation with a burring rod ,shock ’therapy’ ,skinning and contamination with typhus and syphilis …
Ilsa does this to please her General (a fat sicko with grey teeth who gets off on panty pissers).
Luckily (?!) there is a blond ‘bastard American /German who can satisfy the She Wolf and he uses his influence to plan an escaped…
Apparently this film is legendary ! :-o
In Belgium alone over 300.000 people when to see this in cinemas (which is allot) . This does encourage some mediation on the ‘morally and political correct’ public of this mildly conservative country.
It’s somewhat paradoxical that I get frowned upon for laughing my ass of while watching ‘Mark of the Devil’ while there is a good chance that my own father went to see the tasteless ‘Ilisa’ before I was even conceived !
Sure, the fake German ascent is funny. As is the hair (I am still convinced that it was a wig) . The fact hat the thanks are all American and most of the army relics are horribly fake and incorrect is laughable as well.
The fact that the none of the characters can keep their clothes on is funny at first. But when you sit there watching two blond ‘ss’ girls wearing , shall we say ‘unregulated army uniforms’ whipping ‘prisoners’ for 10 minutes than you really can’t help but wonder if this is really necessary. I don’t know but this pointless chain of questionable sex and torture seem only fit to soothe the needs of neo-nazi’s with suppressed sadomasochistic tendencies.
Not my taste at all (if you can call it taste that is)…
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During Ilisa, there where some members of the audience who sough refuge away from the She Wolf’s (s)exploitation. Some of which never came back. Those who did got shocked even more by the hand of an actual German.
Necromantik 1987
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I am told that there is some artistic concept behind this German Necrofil(m)
Granted, there are some pretty alternative visuals and the approach to violence and death is different than most others. -Never the less this picture was (at times) disturbingly realistic and stomach upsetting.
Mixing a strong and rotten flavoured sense of black humour with utterly demented necrophillia, this film lays bare some of the darkest corners of the human psyche.
The scene where a woman plants a broomstick in the corpse (which her beloved husband fished out of the river for her) and then has her way with it is …memorable to say the least.
There is also a scene that give a whole new dimension/dementia to the expression ‘cat in a bag’ .
This film is not for the fainthearted ! Nor animal lovers (sigh, which includes me so let me warn you! And for the record I am against violence against animals. )
This piece is a notorious piece of , what the maker calls ‘corpse fucking art’. And it is the first instalment in a trilogy (hm, why would this one not make it so big like the LOTR ? )
Taboo-breaking is an understatement.
But rest assured, as times passes you reflection dampens and deconstructs the shock tactics released by Buttgereit .
As soon as the credits rolled, so did the audience. During the film I heard allot of ‘oh, no, I reached my limit’ or ‘I think I’m gonna be sick’ :-)
Overall conclusion ;
I enjoyed the first two movies a great deal. The ambience was ok as was the bar. Ilisa was not to my tasted but rather an uncomfortable wait for Necromantik which I had heard so much about.
I came to see some films that where hard to find of not just to see them on a big screen and got what I bargained for (if not slightly more).
The hard chairs may have comatosed my ass halfway through Zombi 2, but who can complain for a 5euro entree fee ?
The only thing that really bothered me was the chain-smoking man that sat in front of me who I hereby would like to curse in public ! – ‘ I hope you get lounge cancer ! I would wish you testicle cancer as well but you would need balls for that !
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12:20 pm - Mid_Splatter_Night -review
Mid_Splatter_Night -review
On the evening of August 28th , nearly a full hour before the first movie was to be unleashed, a hand full of people started to leak thorough the doors of the location where the MidSplatterNight scheme was to take place.
I soon found myself in relatively small room which could hold up to 200 persons – it served it’s purpose well.
In this semi-industrial room horror-soundtrack themes echoed in a brainwashing pattern as the guests got their tastes of zombie-splatter cakes and pancakes.
People started to gather and what started off as a hand full of hardcore movie nuts had now become a significant group of very diverse people.
Then, at last, the crimson lighting dimmed and the first movie was projected.
Zombi 2 ;Gli Ultimi Zombi (1979)
****************************
To my regret this is my first Fulci fim. I recently started a hunt for ‘The Beyond’ and ‘Zombi’ and the viewing of Zombi 2 only made me more determined.
As expected I got my tasted his famous eyeball fetish, on a big screen at that. –What a poking fun that was !
Since I haven’t seen the original Zombi I can’t compare, but I expect it to be better as most originals tend to be.
Zombi 2 has an intro that packs quite a punch. After that however it gets a bit slow but the finally is well worth the waiting. The last half hour gets pretty climatic an the ending is somewhat amusing.
The zombies look great. Unlike the ‘Dawn of the Dead ‘ zombies they don’t have that strange blue shade (which in all honesty does kind of make them look like flesh-eating Smurfs at times) it’s all good old fashion rottenness.
There are some great renewing shots like the 180°-from-pretty-face-to-festering-undead camera angle. Or the aquatic zombie sequence which seems funny at first but then you can’t deny it’s beauty and artistic value.
Even more, ‘Jaws’ is left in the fishbowl after the 4 min original on which a certain filmmaker surely drew for his blockbuster…
As for acting… wrong film ! lol
The script sometimes has a nihilistic ‘Sound of Music’ feel to it ; ‘no,no,no,no don’t do that’ or ‘oh,oh,why,why,why did you do that ?!’ :-)
There are also various charters who clearly don’t speak English and have thus been voiced over. A techinque whic was not very refined – as you hear character say ‘let me have my peace’ and he says peace with his lips set for a clear long ‘O’ :-)
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Then, after some small technical problems (computers always fuck up when you need them) Braindead was showed for our (dis)pleasure.
Braindead (1990)
*************
Peter Jackson is famous for his (over)celebrated ‘Lord of the Rings’ movie adaptations and (luckely) less famous, ‘Meet the Feebles’ (which deserves a place in the BAD BAD movies corner). However, I find this Braindead much more appealing than his aforementioned films.
Braindead is an immensely funny splatter movie. In fact one might have to invent a new term such as ‘mondo-splatter’ or Giga-splatter for this one as there are countless gallons of fake blood in this flick.
Where ‘Return of the Living Dead ‘ fails, Braindead excels in it’s grotesque, politically incorrect spatter parodying.
This isn’t just another comedy with a few drops of blood and a sadistic insinuation of fact. – It starts of with some immensely sadistic slapstick humour (think Texas Chainsaw Massacre meets Mr. Bean) and takes on a nasty Oedipus syndrome to an exceptionally bloody and over the top finally which oozes of slime, murderous guts (seriously), mutants, zombies and a mother that looks like Return of the Jedi’s Rankor monster.
There are also some really funny one-liners in the film. But over all Braindead is a like a roller coaster ride in Zombie Mekka .
But be warned, there isn’t a single scene in this film which does not defy all logic. And as I said it tend to get a bit over the top at the ending. Never the less great fun !
*
Some of the audience seemed strangely less interested in food after the viewing of Braindead.
Little did they know that they had just spent a hour and an half in kindergarten compared to the sickness that was still to come…
Ilsa; the She Wolf of the SS (1974)
*****************************
Where the hell do I start with this one …
I guess there is nothing better (read worse) then to start off with the demented centrepiece of this (s)exploitation film. Ilisa is a bloodthirsty, sadistic Nazi doctor with an X-cup (I believe).
She enjoys to castrate any of the male prisoners who can not satisfy her sexual needs. But of course she is also very professional (ahum) and does medical research for the Third Reich. The FRAWLINE doctor has a theory that’ women can stand more pain, than any man ever could’. Thus you get up close to her and her two half naked, blonde nazi ‘nurses’ (read dominatrix ) Some of the daytime activities are burning, whipping, sterilisation with a burring rod ,shock ’therapy’ ,skinning and contamination with typhus and syphilis …
Ilsa does this to please her General (a fat sicko with grey teeth who gets off on panty pissers).
Luckily (?!) there is a blond ‘bastard American /German who can satisfy the She Wolf and he uses his influence to plan an escaped…
Apparently this film is legendary ! :-o
In Belgium alone over 300.000 people when to see this in cinemas (which is allot) . This does encourage some mediation on the ‘morally and political correct’ public of this mildly conservative country.
It’s somewhat paradoxical that I get frowned upon for laughing my ass of while watching ‘Mark of the Devil’ while there is a good chance that my own father went to see the tasteless ‘Ilisa’ before I was even conceived !
Sure, the fake German ascent is funny. As is the hair (I am still convinced that it was a wig) . The fact hat the thanks are all American and most of the army relics are horribly fake and incorrect is laughable as well.
The fact that the none of the characters can keep their clothes on is funny at first. But when you sit there watching two blond ‘ss’ girls wearing , shall we say ‘unregulated army uniforms’ whipping ‘prisoners’ for 10 minutes than you really can’t help but wonder if this is really necessary. I don’t know but this pointless chain of questionable sex and torture seem only fit to soothe the needs of neo-nazi’s with suppressed sadomasochistic tendencies.
Not my taste at all (if you can call it taste that is)…
*
During Ilisa, there where some members of the audience who sough refuge away from the She Wolf’s (s)exploitation. Some of which never came back. Those who did got shocked even more by the hand of an actual German.
Necromantik 1987
***************
I am told that there is some artistic concept behind this German Necrofil(m)
Granted, there are some pretty alternative visuals and the approach to violence and death is different than most others. -Never the less this picture was (at times) disturbingly realistic and stomach upsetting.
Mixing a strong and rotten flavoured sense of black humour with utterly demented necrophillia, this film lays bare some of the darkest corners of the human psyche.
The scene where a woman plants a broomstick in the corpse (which her beloved husband fished out of the river for her) and then has her way with it is …memorable to say the least.
There is also a scene that give a whole new dimension/dementia to the expression ‘cat in a bag’ .
This film is not for the fainthearted ! Nor animal lovers (sigh, which includes me so let me warn you! And for the record I am against violence against animals. )
This piece is a notorious piece of , what the maker calls ‘corpse fucking art’. And it is the first instalment in a trilogy (hm, why would this one not make it so big like the LOTR ? )
Taboo-breaking is an understatement.
But rest assured, as times passes you reflection dampens and deconstructs the shock tactics released by Buttgereit .
As soon as the credits rolled, so did the audience. During the film I heard allot of ‘oh, no, I reached my limit’ or ‘I think I’m gonna be sick’ :-)
Overall conclusion ;
I enjoyed the first two movies a great deal. The ambience was ok as was the bar. Ilisa was not to my tasted but rather an uncomfortable wait for Necromantik which I had heard so much about.
I came to see some films that where hard to find of not just to see them on a big screen and got what I bargained for (if not slightly more).
The hard chairs may have comatosed my ass halfway through Zombi 2, but who can complain for a 5euro entree fee ?
The only thing that really bothered me was the chain-smoking man that sat in front of me who I hereby would like to curse in public ! – ‘ I hope you get lounge cancer ! I would wish you testicle cancer as well but you would need balls for that !
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August 25th, 2004
09:22 pm - Necromantik Hopes
With luck and some help of my sister I should be able to attend the MidSplatterNight !
:-) http://www.midsplatternight.be/im ages/midsplatternight_affiche.jpg
I‘m really looking forward to it. Hopefully she and her boyfriend can help me out. See I don’t fancy waiting from 02 h for the first train or bus to arrive and then take both to get to my home. :-s
But if it must, I will go alone and wait in the cold.- So be it (but rather not lol).
I will hopefully provide the Satanic Room Forum with a (elaborate) review of the featuring films! Wish me luck (or rather a generous sister)!
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August 13th, 2004
09:51 pm
Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to another yet another episode of inflation of my ego.
Today the menu serves; ‘Aeonic Poetry recyclage’ , the dissolving of ‘Serpentine Fascist Confusion’, a new batch of titles to hover above Satan’s Creative Alcove and of course … new conspiracies.
Aeonic Poetry Recyclage
After two years of postponing and moving up, I have finally managed to ‘remake’ one of my early poems. The titles of this 2002 un-epic attempt was ‘ The Aeon Leviathan’. The concept was one that would overshadow most material that was yet to come. An ambience of revolution on with a heavy (post) apocalyptic feel to it.
After completing the Whiplash Crescendo mini-cycle, I felt I still had some creative energy left. So after a long browse I blew the dust of the Aeon Leviathan file. It was brought to my attention when I was salvaging and revising the ‘ Why Satan Sells’ essay from the abominable Gothic Circle *sigh * It seemed the webmaster(s) had not even gone through the trouble of reading the material before posting it. – Aeon Leviathan, being an unmistakable poem was put with the Satanism files as an essay.
The original lacked much of the content to which the title aspired. – It lacked an pomp, it was meant to be bombastic and fluent. Instead of adding things to it, I started from scratch. The result is a three-part mini cycle which hold much more than it’s original and pack a decent punch ( hope). It’s also a clear indication on how far Leviathan ‘character’ (as it often called by those who hope my Satanic/ Artistic Allegiance is of a passing nature) has evolved in these last two years.
The new poem is thus called ‘ Aeon Leviathan (version II )’. The online-publication of it brings us to our next topic…
The Dissolving of (What Could Lead To) ‘Serpentine Fascist Confusion’
Project Serpent Senter is still running yet, in it’s early stage it’s name has been put in the fridge (however it’s KaOtIc spelling might be used for another (sub)project in the future).
As you know I am no particularly favourable of the Flemish Nationalist (read fascist ) Party. Thus the Serpent Senter seemed somewhat unfit as it’s initials are SS…it doesn’t take a seven-headed politician to smell the Nazi stench on those initials. So, to avoid any confusion or rumour, the Serpent Senter has made way for it’s sub-title; The Black Nexion.
Black Nexion is more suited for the project – as it is a project concerning Chaos Art / Satanism /KaOsIsM.
The Nexion will accommodate some of my poetry & essay and possibly of some other people.
Here is a new batch of titles I have lately adapted for your online pleasure (yet to be put in htlm);
-Idimmu Idpa (demon fever)
-Para Noia
-Miller’s Court
-Perf_X_Ion
- Sanctuary of a Darker Alef
-Poetic Cycle ; The Aphelium [with permission of A.Lilith…still to receive]
Incldes;
I. Satyr Dream Spell
II. Unquestioned
III. The Fields by Night
IV. Her Falling to the sky
V. Hauls that proceeded Her Grace
VI. The Infidel of Satanel
VII. Of Lylyth (Li (li) thium part I)
Mini cycles;
-A Whiplash Crescendo
Includes;
-Prelude to Conical Pride-
A Whiplash Crescendo ; Part One
A Whiplash Crescendo ; Part II – Asmodian Pact
Outro ; In The Garden of Heden
-Aeon Leviathan
Includes ;
Verbal Serpentine Brought Outside the Vault of Zain
Chapter II; The Redeemer’s Call
Chapter III ; A Verse for a New Kia / ‘Dreamscape’
I have also retrieved some had-written drafts for an experimental literati- blasphemy which remains untitled to this day. It is by far the most offensive, Chaotic and incoherent bunch of letters I have assembled to this day.
So far I have written /typed up, four (un)chapters;
I. D- construction
II. The Wrong Cookie Spoke
III. Ingredients for the Suicide Prom-Bomb part I
IV. Come on Baby Reich my Fire (or the deaf poet & the green painting )
Notably, the titles haven’t got anything to do with the actual content of the chapters. Everything seems somewhat imploded. To be honest I have no idea of I will ever let this be seen by the eyes of those who think I am no completely devoid of decency. – Either way, few people will believe me when I say that I wrote this in a sober state.
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August 4th, 2004
06:41 pm - A Whiplash Crescendo
Whiplash Crescendo
All hens on dec(adence ) !
The Whiplash Crescendo has reached a stage of completion.
It is a three part poem that focuses on the masculine Satanic Spirit. Subtitled ~A Testament of Asmodian Spirits ~ the work is a lucid way of paying homage to and or evoking the essence of Icubus .
Whiplash Crescendo was inspired upon Asmodeus, Gelar ,Sammael and Marquis de Sade . Contrary to most of my poetry it has some strong sad-masochistic tensions to it. However subtle (or not) as they may be depends on the faintheartedness of the readers and their imagination.
It also re-tells the story of temptation . Replacing Eve, the (goody good ) tempteress with Gelal. Basically ‘Adam and Even- the other way around ‘ ;-)
I will ask my webmaster to open a new cyber -vault so I may store it there in the near future.
Current Music: My Dying Bride
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06:39 pm - The Foundation of the Serpent's Senter
Thanks to my enthusiastic friend , M.J. Klodner , the www.satanicroom.com will have a little brother in cyberspace. The Serpent Senter (or Black Nexion) will be the reformed and better version of my/our humble personal webspace that provided a place of some of my artwork from late 2002/ early 2003 .
Mr. Klodner (aka P.D.C ) will be taking the technical factors for his account. Later on, my beloved A.Lilith may also place some of her material on it.
The site is still in it’s infant stage – and as stated before it will not be a big site or something to replace the Satanic Room with. It will simply be a personalised space concentrating mainly on creative aspects of KAOSS (Kaotic Alliance of Satanic Sepents) .
So far, the first essay has been put online ; "Leviathan , Some background on the Demon Name ". This might be useful for all those who want look a little further than the ‘ serpent of the watery abyss’ in the Satanic Bible.
This log has also been added to the site – as an (inter)active part of the website’s goal.
You will find the beginning of the Serpent Senter at ; http://www.angelfire.com/zine2/justinklodner/index2.html
Speaking of my invasion of the web ; a new work on the A.C project has been put on the Satanic Room. It’s called ‘ Toughs behind the photography of the AC project ‘ and it can be found under the photography section. It features the three pictures I used in the creation of the Antichrist Corners and more importantly the concepts behind them. I hope some of you will find it interesting !
Meanwhile I have also begun to work on a new poetic cycle. So far it will be entitled ; Whiplash Crescendo. It will focus on the other side of Aphelium . Whiplash Crescendo will be a work on the Satanic seducer , The Iblis and the Incubus.
However it is still in an early stage of development. I think it will be much shorter than my previous poetic cycles
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July 23rd, 2004
08:52 pm - Update -.. ".The New(s)hit "
Thursday, July 22, 2004
update
I pasted some posts from my other log here as I find this one less 'plezant' to work with. But I made it so, I might stop the neglect right ....?
Anyway ,most significantly, I have added 2 essays on the Satanic Room; " Why Satan Sells" & " Picasso Never Painted" . The first is an older one (2002 I believe) that I finally retieved and revised from it's original post on the Gothic Souls website *shivers* the titles speaks for itself. The Seond essay in on the ignorance of people and te decay of artsitc value..-You can read them on http://www.satanicroom.com/writings.html
Also ,I added 2 new poems to my collection on the Satanic Room ; Para Noia and The Seond Wave.
I have completed my short review of George A. Romero’s Dead Trilogy – and hereby reached the peek of my ‘zombie period’ ;-)
I posted some short reviews of Night/ Dawn/Day of the Dead on the Satanic Room Forum.
I also posted a little note on Photography and two poems I discussed earlier here ; "Para Noia" and "The Second Wave" have been added to my on line poetry !
I’m also selling some clothes (I’m in need of money :- s ) if anyone would be interested , please have a look at ;
http://www.gothweb.be/viewtopic.php?t=6718
4 prices (in Dutch :-s ) and view them at http://groups.msn.com/Gothiccircle/tekoop.msnw?Page=1
perhaps a long shot lol but I’m getting pretty desperate …
*note , no I’m not planing to use this log as a commercial vessel but hey, every bit helps right ?
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Arch Enemy - " The Beast Called Man"
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08:51 pm - In memory of Faust
Thursday, July 15, 2004
In memory of Faust
As I was cleaning up my pc ( another battle against cookies ), I retrieved a small poem I wrote some time ago and thought to be lost. It’s entitled ; “The Tears of Faust” .
I think I did it about a year (could be 2 years ) ago. It made me look for another little thing I made inspired by Faust . It’s a fragment of the play , possibly it’s most dramatic chapter – the end .
I’ll see if I can adapt it so it could feature on the Satanic Room. However, the credit can’t really be mine. – like so many I am in an awful debt Goethe .
The little poem will be presented here and if it’s to your liking it will also be placed on the Satanic Room.
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The Tears of Faust
Oh ,name me the secret name
Held by cruel angels
The plague spreads far and wide
There is no cure
No place to hide
So many have already died
But one night
When chilly Moonlight strokes the doctor’s shadow
What is God but a Macrocosmic heretic ?
How can he inflict such misery ?
What is the cause of this pain ?
What is the reward for this ?
What is holy behind Death’s cold kiss ?
So many have already died
With brutal words of power
I shall conjure He who shuns the light
Mephisto !
Arise Mephistopheles
And raise me up from this festering pile
For I shall not go without having know love’s touch
Mephisto !
Spirit from Hell away
Stop thine sulphur swimming
And bring me love’s amulet
And bring me to her bed
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Apparently, some e-mail error occurred again and my two poems ( which I rambled about in yesterday’s post ) didn’t get sent to Walewein . I will try again today.
One a different note; I have a favour to ask to any of the readers of this Log who is capable of granting my request. I don’t even know if it’s possible ( and if you try to explain why it is or isn’t I probably wouldn’t understand it ) but I am thinking about changing the header /banner of this log. You know the big rectangle on top with the title in it ? I have no idea if it’s possible to alter that alone ( I think the rest of this page is ok) or how to do it. Anyway if possible; I would like to see’ Leviathan Speaks ‘ in some Gothic font ( like Old English ).
Am I just dreaming here ? If not , is there anyone who could help me with that ?
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08:50 pm - The Seasons No Longer Change
Tuesday, July 13, 2004-The Seasons No Longer Change
I have retreated to my girlfriend’s home the last few day ,so I guess it’s time I updated this log .
Seasons no longer change . It’s just one big autumn here - rain , wind , a dash of sunshine that manages to hurt you eyes . By the time you get your sunglasses , it’s pouring down on you again.
Personally I don’t have a problem with an all season autumn but most people do . As a result all the people who bought their pink bikini’s and fluo shorts turn pissed and frustrated …needles to say , the common man is now more irritating to me than ever.
The last few days I tried to re-charge my batteries but failed , either something is physically very wrong with me or I slept in a Vampiric Vacum for to long . Either ways , sleep depravation isn’t as fun as it use to be . My body seem to be more brittle than I already tough …
In the mean time I have had some trouble with retrieving “Satan Sells” ,one of my older writing that I mistakenly allowed a rather incompetent webmaster to publish on his non-active marginal web -ruin .
I have also been busy writing some short movie reviews which I (shall) frequently post at the Satanic Room Forum .
Mencace ofthe Sheep , the Second part of ‘ presumptions of the sheep’ has also found it’s way to the Satanic Room as have two of my Run to Organica water-colour paintings . Both are semi-self-portraits .
Terrible Coincidence ’s remark has motivated me to add some more information to my piece on Marilyn Manson . I have also found a potential title for it ; “ Marilyn Manson - Deserving of a Second Glance “. Does that seem right (left)?
I’m working on five chapters ;
I. Introduction
II. A Short piece of info on the Albums
III. Some Lyrics
IV. Setting the record ‘Straight’
V. Dancing with the Antichrist
I was planing on improving the Sat Ro newsletter but it seems there has been a communications failure .
Terrible Coincidence’s feedback/correction tips = didn’t get to me . Lilith did receive them but deleted them as her storge reached it’s limit and she tough you might have sent it to me …I checked but none of my , or the official newsletter address had such an e-mail. :-s
Could you possibly re-send it ? to ME ?
Thanks
I apologise for the discomfort (of course you are free to edit/correct yourself) .
I think that’s it for now …
HS!
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July 2nd, 2004
05:01 pm
I am reaching the completion of the “Aphelium” which now counts over 10 pages .
I have also been working on a revised version of my “ Satanism VS Wicca” essay and cleaned it up a bit . The original was written in a rather emotional stage and counted the work ‘crap’ over 15 times ;- ) The title has also been altered to “ Satanism VS Pop-Wicca “ to avoid any misunderstandings.
I’m also transcribing a short essay entitled “ Menace of the Sheep” to digital form and it should soon be completed and hopefully online shortly .
In the mean time Walewein has added some pictures of my AC- project to the Satanic Room photography section. I’m still working on the translation of the info on that . I hate translation – such a slow process …
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June 25th, 2004
07:17 pm - The Cross Lady ~A metaphor for RHP compulsion
The Cross Lady
A metaphor for RHP compulsion
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A couple of days ago , when I was abruptly pushed out of my daydreaming by a strange , cold and bony hand .
As I turned around to inspect this offender I found myself eye in eye with a caricature I had encountered various times before. -It was non other that “ the Cross Lady “.
The “Cross Lady” is this lunatic woman who travels all over the country with a huge cross on her shoulders (I am serious , the cross is bigger than her ) . While making an ass out of herself she likes to rant , scream and occasionally prophecies .
As usual , she had to stop ME ,and tell me (read scream my pour ears hall deaf ) I had to listen to the voice of Jesus in all of us ! And that I needed to repent and confess my sin. While she made this assault on my hearing she used one hand to ‘gently grab me’ ( read try to shatter my shoulder) and the other to psychotically point to the big red letters that spelled out ‘ J E Z US ‘ on her cross.
I am told that this woman lost her husband in some tragic car accident or something . She obviously could not cope she just snapped and became a renegade ,fanatic /frantic Christian .
For years now she has travelled form city to city to ram the word of God down your skull.
She enters shops to ‘enlighten’ shop-aholics and collects half the rakes on her holy totem by storming through with her huge crucifix.
One time she even materialised on my school playground ! Luckily she was sent away , but no without making a scene that would humiliated even her God (if he ever existed that is) ,that was a pretty sight – to see the tables turned .
The funny thing is that , this woman , being such a ‘good’ child of God is nothing more that a compulsive rant-o-matic . She is obviously not happy with the simple thought that ‘he is in God’s hand now ‘ . Hell she was never such a psychotic fanatic when her dear hubby was still alive . This woman has been destroyed by loss and the lies RHP doctrines surround it with. RHP is mostly an oppressive , masochistic death- cult. And she is a product of that.
The Cross Lady is a symbol , dare I say a thousand-faced, living metaphor of the sheer oppressive spirit that RHP culture holds (or held) over it’s minions and slaves.
It’s not as much the ‘Christ’ in Christianity that made western- Europe to the heap of hypocrite crap it is now . In fact Christianity is losing it’s grip over the masses as so many post-apocalyptic robots want to ‘look further’ and stray into the waters of New Age (–ish-ism). The past two decades or so , New Age , (pseudo)Paganism , and spiritists have marched and in hand with Buddhism , Jewish Mysticism and Hinduism to snatch away the confused lambs of Christ .
An less Catholic climate may have been provided due to various child abuse scandals but the climate remained largely Satanism-unfriendly.
Prophets may go by other names , gods get sex-change operation to play Mother Goddesses ,but some how all these recycled pseudo-theologies are all Anti-Satanic . In all their harmony and love they tend to deny the uncomfortable aspects of human nature. They simply try to ignore them like a bunch of fluffy smiling maniacs with a ‘everything ins good’ buffer in their (largely inactive) brains. They kid themselves into having a selective memory – a nice way to package SEL-FDENIAL .
Denial is a common standard in white light circles . I grew up in a semi-catholic environment …the compulsion without most of the religious dogma .
As a child for instance I was ‘forbidden’ to watch Horror movies or very violent movies. As a result I was tempted and sunk behind my parent’s backs to rent any scary movie I could get my hands on . I worked out rather complex plans to view these ‘forbidden tapes’ . Hell wasn’t trying to tape any soft-erotic flick , porn left me cold – it was Horror that was forbidden .
Recently my mother asked me why the hell I still waist my time amongst psychos , blood dripping blades and demons . I told her that it had a sense of sinfulness nostalgia to it , which she herself created .
She explained that she did what she thought was right and treated me like any other normal child . Note that mere hours earlier she was telling me that there is something special about me and that I’m not like other people. ‘Normal’ children don’t spend every spare minute drawing monsters throughout their entire childhood – Hell I was afraid of monster ,even then dark but that didn’t mean I tried to deny it ! It was a creative force , yes it came out in bogeymen and beasts but is was a creative force nevertheless . - Horror movies could only provide me with more inspiration
The thing is , the more you tell kids what they shouldn’t do , the more you will specify their rebellion.
If she said ‘ok , we will watch a Horror movie’ and picked out the most horrific piece of material available she could scare the kind into avoiding the Horror corner in any video store for years to come.
Unfortunately , I had to do this by my self to . Or rather a friend of mine did ,by baptising me with The Evil Dead . Yes , oh fuck yes I was scared . A few moths later however I started renting all I could to build myself some resistance.
I never really knew if it was the lure of screams , blood and masked sociopaths or simply the inverted guilt trip and ‘danger’ of it all . I think it was a bit of both . Still to this day it provides me with a form of escapism which allows me to reclaim some of my childhood .
Childhood is something very precious , no matter how fucked up it may have been.
My mother was raised in a fairly old-school hard-core Catholic ; ‘believe or die’ kind of way . She want to be normal . She likes nothing more than to be like anyone else and to blend in . I simply can’t relate to this over pacifistic lifestyle . People who feel they have accomplished something ‘good’ when they are publicly humiliated are masochists. - No, not all of them really , as I have come to discover there is a whole new wave of “Prozac- Christians “. This group has a nick for compulsion and self-denial. It’s not really the biblical dogma that upheld here it more of the self-destructive mentality. New- Age- Xtian s , are often Prozac-Christians who use a new label to describe their weakness. They can shut away all the misery in the world , even personal losses etc.. in their ‘harmony-everything-is –good’ filter. Positive thinking is one thing but they are simply out of touch with reality . – Until one day , the smile breaks into a thousand pieces and they fall into a personal hell built by their own ‘harmonic’ denial.
The Cross Lady is a thousand faced incarnation of RHP oppression. It’s not do as to others as you would have them to unto yourself – it’s DO as TV demands you LOOK unto corporations and always buy the newest face you can get !!!!
It the whole , ‘this is good’ and ‘this is bad’ system that is functions as a form of Spiritual Fascism if you will.
“ If you are not with us , your are against us” – this form an all loving and non-discriminative religion ? !
I as a ‘bad buy’ am suppose to be the psycho , violent ass hole and devil worshipper. This is simply because we see life as it is , good and bad (bother good and bad vary from person to person) . I don’t pretend there is no war going on simply because the Pope , or Bush tell me to. I don’t pretend that I like everyone and I don’t buy Nikey shoes because the fashion police tells me to . And I’m a “maniac” for it .
Well , I , the bad guy do have some acquaintances , one might call friends ( however I shun that term in most cases , friends are very hard to come by nowadays) who are Wiccans , some are part of the pseudo-new age cult and some are even semi- Christians. Hell I even like to talk to a Moslem girl from Kazakhstan.
Of course I am likely to find more common ground in a conversation with a Satanist , but that has occurred very rarely. Besides , the fact they want to talk to me proves that they aren’t really enslaved RHP-ers.
It amusing that I as knight of an anti-religion can look past the religious labels . It’s kind of ironic that the so called ‘hater’ is often more of al Lover than most ‘lovers’.
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June 24th, 2004
02:17 pm - Done, ..for now
As of today my exams are over .
Strangely , fort the first time in my life I looking kind of positive to the results. This is not only strange because I NEVER associate school with anything positive but also because this has been the toughest year( in study arterial) so far . Of course I’m kind of luck y I got so many oral exams , lesser magic is a definite advantage which can not be used in written exams ( arg , an 2 of my 3 worst classes are written )
I took my oral English exam today . It was nice actually , I felt very chatty as did the teacher . We had to bring 2 articles in English to discuss. I brought an article on The Doors , by Marilyn Manson for Rolling Stone Magazine ( read it @ http://images.mail2fans.com/9932/rsdoors.jpg) and a review on Circus of Horrors from an old Terrorizer issue.
To my surprise , the teacher was very interested in both pieces and the whole thing turned into a mutual fascination with the gloom and doom that holds both articles. The brilliant influence of the Lizard King and the angle-grinding antics of the Neo-Freak-Show proved to be interesting conversation material indeed.
As I walked out of the classroom the teacher complemented me on my written exam ( we had to make an improvised (pseudo- )biography ). She told me it was very excellent and that it was the best thing she had received in years .
Two days ago I had my oral History examination – I studied the course well but that was once more ‘irrilevant’ it seems as the teacher simply asked my ‘personal’ opinion on my future and my view on the Flemish Blok (Nationalist (read Fascist) party) . After a few line of chit chat she sent me off with a 87/100 … even let me get I have no idea of that cynical , tumour infested woman actually got my point . -aw well ..
It’s refreshing ,(but also mildly depressing) to see that an freak ‘asshole’ like me can actually make teachers happy by telling them about my (anti)hero’s who they would likely find crude, rude and infantile . Compared to all the ‘ I love Jessica Simpson ‘ crap and the ‘ I think IKEA has great , progressive designers’ – my tougts , amoral and unfounded as they may seem ,do stand out. It’s funny actually that through a twist in faith I got my class to learn about LaVey , Dix ,Lovecraft and Manson because they had functioned as inspirations for a school-project of mine.
I guess it made me feel powerful and dare I say , even a tad hopeful that all may not be lost yet.
With the exams out of the way I shall now concentrate on working on some essays and hopefully complete the “ Aphelium” on time . The actual Aphelium takes place on the 4th of July , no shit – who strangely American yet pressingly INDEPENDANT beyond the metaphor :- )
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June 21st, 2004
04:49 pm - 2 bold 2b sold ?
I had two oral examination to day - one on Moral , for which I made a 47 page work on Satanism ( the demanded number of pages was only 15 ) .
The teacher didn’t even ask any question on it’s contents it’s actual matter . She only commented that my writing style is somewhat too bombastic and totalitarian for her taste.
For example ; I finished my introduction with “ if you change you ideas on Satanism is of course you choice alone “ - she found this an oppressive , commanding tone … well , I don’t really see that . the idea was to inform the reader in advance that the work itself was not a pack of Satanic propaganda , that this wasn’t meant to “lure people to the Dark Side “ or whatever . One would expect appreciation for (self)criticism as I did not whitewash attempt Satanism as whole … but no , I was to patronising in her eyes.
She told me that I was very thorough ,and that wasn’t what she was looking for – thoroughness was somehow ‘irrelevant’ . I told her that if I wrote on something that lies so close to me I would find it disrespectful of myself to give her a simple print out of the CoS Info Sheet and put my name under it .
After some foolish attempts to aggravate me – she told me that , in comparison to the others , my hard work excelled (if she like it or not ) and she gave me a !!!! 95/100 !!!!! (that’s the maximum , they aren’t allowed to give more – above 95 inspection suspects a sexual affair between student en teacher or something )
: - )
The second oral examination today was on art-initiation . For which I made the Facinatem et Tremondum . The woman hardly talked to me as she had a sudden urge to interview the girl from Kazagstan next to me. The whole thing turned into a debate on racism … I walked out with a 85/100 (based on my work only ) …not bad indeed
: - )
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